Ok yyeaaahh how do you begin a journal entry after suddenly disappearing for a year. Or a half. I don't even want to know, this is embarrassing enough already. First of all, I'd want to apologize for everybody who's been concerned in this hiatus-like temporary death of me on deviantART, or in fact every art site I've ever been at. I can't recall anything myself but if I owe you anything, please send me a note and I'll see what I can do asap!
As for the art thing, somebody might know that last couple of months I've been filling up my Tumblr with fan art, which has quite a long time (well, it has felt like one) my only place to share my doodles with other people besides close friends. I'm not a psychologist myself, but I'm quite positive it's got something to do with my social anxiety that has been haunting me for years art-wise, or when it comes to posting it somewhere or interacting with other artists. Not going to tell details in front of this much audience, but for further explanation, see my first journal on FA (username is Jeniak, made a new one instead of deleting everything on my old account).
Now here's a bit of a life update so you can skip this, it might be boring but I'm gonna tell it anyway..! So, even though everything I've been through might seem a bit gloomy (a part of it was a nightmare, there's no denying that), it's taught me to learn, so to speak. However, my condition forced me to move back home and even though I'm still having a hard time trying to figure out what I want to do, I've taken a step closer to the right decision, big thanks to the help I finally accepted.
There was a time when I considered completely leaving art out when it comes to my future career, and I'm still a bit unsure mostly because of the lack of coinfidence towards my work to be honest, but right now I kinda feel like trying. And boy am I going to need to try hard, but right now I don't see it as an unpleasant challenge even if it won't be easy. I'm already improved my art a lot during the past year and I'm going to continue doing that even more seriously. I might be messing with styles and experiment a lot, so please bear with me haha! And most of all, prepare yourself for an upcoming art spam after I'm done with editing my long outdated profile.
This might be a bit personal but what really helped me to keep going is that I've made lots of new friends of the people I already had in my life in some manner. The awkward handsakes just have changed into warm hugs and I couldn't be happier about it!
So yea I'm back. Hi...? ´v`;;